Old bookstore, I thank you

I stumbled upon the bookstore of my dreams in Anvers (Antwerpen), Countless stacks of books I wanted to look through for hours. I was inspired to create a list of books to dive into this summer. This list will probably change and grow, but for now it rests as this and I can not wait to find my old bookstore in Oregon. 

An Ordinary Man

Paul Rusesabagina

For Whom the Bell Tolls

Ernest Hemingway

Mountains Beyond Mountains

Tracey Kidder

Fear & Loathing On The Campaign Trail

Hunter S. Thompson

The Berlin Stories

Christopher Isherwood

The Catcher In the Rye

JD Salinger

Dog Soldiers

Robert Stone

One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest

Ken Kesey

The Sun Also Rises

Ernest Hemingway

Light in August

Faulkner

Accepting Tomorrow.

What does it mean to live,

or better yet, 

How does it truly feel?

Is it something to always be searching for?

Or is it the now?

The feeling of lasting bonds between once strangers,

Soon departures,

The trains to nowhere
 that transform into endless nights,

Laughter, 

Crying tears of happiness
which can not be shed through words,

Blank canvas turned into memories
 painted in living color.

The feeling of being exactly where I belong,

No fear,

Grasping onto life, Soaking it in.

No longer merely EXISTING, 

But, FEELING.

Feeling every emotion, every breath,

The earth beneath my bare feet

Which sings a song that only I can dance to,

I alone, and can share,

As others share with me,

Creating endless rhythms, 

Pulsing,

Loving,

Experiencing.

Truly FEELING.

For when I truly feel it all, 

I find meaning.

I do not need to search,

but rather explore.

Living is everywhere, I want to feel it.

Leaving a place with changed vision,

Changed thoughts,

I have no regret, 

nor sorrow for the "see you laters" 

Shadowing over today's last joys.

I am ready for it all, 

Each place I go or return to,

It is all a new place to explore,

To discover what I couldn't feel when I left.

LIFE, 

I will feel you,

Discover you,

Strip you of vanities,

and above all,

LIVE you.

For living is to feel.

It is no longer my eyes that see,

but my soul.

xx